Good Morning Master woke this morning slightly dazed, however after shower feeling refreshed and ready to come to You in Song and Praise. Jai Guru! My Master is Ultimate, the Greatest. You gave confirmation today that Conviction and Absorption, that Spirit is Living this Life, Be Enlightened and Make others Enlightened, Be Realized and help others to Realize. Jai Guru! Telling your story because You are Living the Knowledge, Spontaneous, Anonymous, Unidentified, Identity, That You Are! Jai Guru! One new friend has visited the Ashram to clear the doubts that may be obscuring Truth with Maharaj, Master Please show me how I may be helpful. Jai Sadguru!
Journal Entry August 24, 2015
Journal Entry August 23, 2015
Good Morning Master woke this morning and again no water, No Complaints and Thank You! Thank You for allowing me enough Hot Water to run in order to wash my hair. Relaxing and waiting to sing Praises to Your Divinity Within. Thank You Master for allowing me to be helpful to Paulo this morning, shopping, advice on the fan and general chatting. Closing out a Beautiful Day Thank You Master. So looking forward to tomorrow and celebrating with fellow Devotee’s the Birthday of Shri Siddharameshwar Maharaj.
Journal Entry August 22, 2015
Thank You Master woke this morning refreshed and ready to sing and dance Praises to the Divinity Shining Within. Last night had a dream about what is past illusion, instead of making sense it was Unicorns and Rainbows. Mantra is continuing as Master said throughout sleep and seems to be sorting through and erasing illusory memories now even in dream and sleep state. Jai Guru! Thank You Master Morning Kakad Arati and speaking after, identifying the Newness of bowing to the recognition and formless nature of the Maters as my Self. Lunch was super awesome, sitting quietly smiling. Jai Guru! Closing out a beautiful day, met a new devotee Paulo from Italy, please show me how I may be helpful. Speaking with You in the form of Sri Ramakant Maharaj yet without form was a Divine Blessing. Thank You. Jai Sadguru!
Journal Entry August 21, 2015
Thank You Master woke up this morning refreshed and ready to come to You in song and praise. Thank You Master for allowing me to give something to ease the suffering of that family. It is as You said Master the scab is peeling to new skin. Confirmation that the scar is being removed by Divine Grace, erasing the past completely! Jai Guru! Thank You Master for a beautiful closing to this day. Jai Guru!
Journal Entry August 20, 2015
Thank You God woke up this morning and for the first time since being sick was able to have a solid bathroom experience. Water is not working so had to fill a bucket with scalding hot water and wait for it to cool to try and bathe, Mantraed through the experience. Last night Maharaj stated that the city was being locked down due to a terrorist threat, he has arranged a private car to take me out of the city and to the airport on the 29th. Both of these would have caused a lot of frustration and fear, however now are just seen as tests of the knowledge of Ultimate Reality. When Mantraed through as such seems Master is turning up the “heat” so to speak to test the forgive and forget, patience, tolerance, desire to know, Faith in the Master all to remain Calm and Quiet and stabilize more in the Realization.
OK, God complaining just a little in this moment, forgive me. Whatever is happening I surrender completely to You Master. Surges of negative energies that seem to be engulfed in deeper silence and deeper Peace. Really intense and hard to place in words, Negative is not just seen as passing but rather engulfed, swallowed in Peace, Bliss, Silence. Rather like a turn around of instead of the wave experiencing the ocean, it is only the ocean momentarily experiencing itself as a wave.
Back again just broke down letting more frustration out, screaming inside! LUNCH INSANELY SPICY AGAIN! MORE VEGETABLES IN LUNCH THAT BUGS BUNNY COULD TAKE, BHAJANED OUT 7 HOURS! 7 HOURS OF SINGING AND DANCING. BREAKING DOWN SCREAMING INSIDE! TODAY HAS BEEN A DAY OF HELL AND TORTURE! FROM THE SCALDING BATH, SO FAR 4 HOURS OF SINGING AND DANCING WITH MORE TONIGHT! SINGING PRAYING, DANCING IN AN ENDLESS CIRCLE! If I pull out and go to the Orange Tree Hotel it means the battle for my Self is lost.
Jai Guru! I spoke with Master about today’s feelings and experiences honestly. Thank You for the lessons, the Trust and the Final push, Giving Grateful Thanks Tonight. Jai Sadguru Sri Ramakant Maharaj Ki Jay!
Journal Entry August 19, 2015
Good Morning Master, Ready to sing praises to You. Today we are going shopping, please help me to remember and pick gifts thoughtfully. Wow, Thank You God, just came back from shave and amazing facial and head massage. Amazing gave 140 rs which equates to $2.14 and with service that would have been $80 – $120 in the U.S. Unbelievable! Thank You Master for the amazing experiences that continue to unfold. Thank You Master after shopping so many negative energies, mind seemed to be trying to complain about everything seen as intolerable and annoying. After listening to the Master speak instant return to the Presence and identity shifted attention from body straight to the Reality. Thank You. Jai Guru!
Journal Entry August 18, 2015
Thank You God, woke up this morning completely exhausted with massive amounts of energy. Anxious as a child to come and sing praises to You. Singing and dancing in Your Glory Master, Calm, Quiet, Peaceful Spontaneous Happiness, Joy, Peace, Exceptional Silence. If Master says something Will Happen it WILL HAPPEN! Some stirring is being observed, strange dreams, dream and waking seem to blend, memories being remembered that never happened, feeling emotional and sensitive yet fully Detached and Aware. Lost any sense of bearing, seem to Awaken from sleep in naps suddenly filled with energy but dazed. Is Selfless Self re-writing and finishing different “stories” with positive outcomes and conclusions? Thank You Master closing out this beautiful day OM SHANT, SHANTI, SHANTI.
Journal Entry August 17, 2015
Began posting on Ramakant Maharaj’s Facebook timeline with fresh photo’s from the Ashram and quotes from Selfless Self. Spreading the Truth of the Master as expressed through the Masters of the lineage. Thank You God, may I continue to Serve as an instrument of the Divine Will, Thank You Master tonight during Bhajans not only expansion away from body, but seeing the entire Ashram as almost appearing in a show box, with little people including this body observed dancing and signing. Stateless State of observing as if in a bubble, knowing the bubble was arising out of my Self. Jai Guru!
Journal Entry August 16, 2015
Thank You God woke up this morning feeling Great, showered, dressed and am ready to come and sing praises to You. Master shared the picture of One on One. Jai Guru! Thank You. Amazing day singing, dancing, praising You, such beautiful flowers decorating the images of the various forms that You have spoken through. From last year reading I Am That, Master of Self Realization and Ramakant Maharaj, Facebook, Skype, the wonderful book Selfless Self, Trip to India to meet You as Ramakant Maharaj, the Ashram, the journeyless journey of Absolute Bliss All Praises. Jai Guru! Today getting so lost and wandering through the city reciting Mantra, the True Name, Formless, Timeless, Absolute. The donation that was given that arose from the immense gratitude that purs from every ounce of Being. Your instrument, Your servant, Your GuruPutra. Master is Father, Mother, Friend, Teacher, Guide, God and my very Self.