I have been seeking redemption for the life of the Unborn child, hiding in the dark corners where it was believed the light of the Divine could not reach. Cowering in a New identity of being a spiritual man to hide the fact that the shadow felt itself unlovable. In this moment the false sense of security that was desperately held onto has been blown away, and the sensation is that of Falling, Spinning, No bearings what so ever and it is O.K. This I surrender to Thee.