Forgive me Lord I am experiencing some bouts of self pity in the moment. The idea came to write a gratitude list as the blessings have been abundantly flowing and I wanted to give thanks on record. India Trip – Got tickets, Charles said I can stay in the Ashram for the month of August, Maharaj Book Selfless Self and Skyping with Maharaj, and I know it is You I am speaking with and we are about to meet in form. Thank You. Work is going beyond amazing. There is spontaneous responding and scenes just passing without notice or concern. Charles has said that 50 Million Saints and Sadhus (Holy Men) will be in Nashik, which is only every 12 years that this happens, and I will BE THERE WITH YOU taking initiation into the Inchegiri Navnath Sampradaya!!! Thank You God. Please forgive me for showing any ingratitude or self pity. I Thank You deeply for the life You chose to live as me. Thank You for the Grace, Love and Peace that is You.
Journal Entry April 22, 2015
Thank You God for the amazing transformations that have been witnessed occurring this week. You have shown the way to a patient peace where there is no waiting as the only thought that comes is after whatever is being waited on is here. I will not be thinking about waiting, therefore the idea of waiting is seen as false and is discarded. After skyping with Maharaj the spontaneous action planning a trip to India for a month to sit with You in the form of Sri Ramakant Maharaj has manifested. The random picking of August and my manager at work thanking me for for going at a time in between project cycles is again proof of perfect order. You have already bestowed (subconsciouly and intuitively, Sri Ramakant Maharaj had not yet given the Naam Mantra) the powerful Mantra ‘Yo Sau Soham Hamsa Soham Asmi’ which the subconscious is chanting continuously in the background of every activity and which arises when no activity is occurring. The dead mind is an ocean of silent peace and has grown immensely in depth. As You have blessed me with revealing yourself in the form of Sri Ramakant Maharaj through Skype and Facebook their is the constant flow of knowledge which is perceived at the most subtle level. Moments of difficulty arise, are briefly noticed and then again subside back into the ocean of peace. Thank You, Thank You, Thank You.
Journal Entry April 11, 2015
Thank You God! Today I was able to Skype with Sri Ramakant Maharaj feeling the energy flowing freely and the mind completely dead. Meeting You without fear or expectation. Hearing you speak after having been guided by you internally as the sense of Presence since 2010 and knowing immediately that it was You and I was not crazy. The fear is illusion, fear leaves, absolute peace, silence, quietness. This is the Reality now, Thank You. Speaking with You as Sri Ramakant Maharaj today allowed me to see in retrospect that the Spirit or Presence which was felt for the first time in October of 2010, was nourished through the program of recovery, was truly guiding and molding my life as I surrendered more deeply to the Presence. That Presence that led me to read I Am That, Master of Self-Realization and had slowly been removing my ignorance was indeed my Self, which I was meeting with and talking with for the first time in the form of Sri Ramakant Maharaj. What A Blessing and Gift. Aham Brahmasmi…. Tat Tvam Asi…. Om Shanti, Shanti, Shanti, Om…. Thy Will Always Be Done… Thanks Be to God!